Thursday, February 23, 2017

What's The Point?

Dealing with human mortality. When death was so near. Is there really heaven and hell and the eternal life? (Funny enough, Fr Dougal in the conedy seried "Fr Ted" also questioned this in one episode) 

I really want to believe. If nothing else, it's because believing in the Mighty Imaginary Friend Above makes life easier to handle. But I want to believe that there is a point in life, that Love will make things better, that He did not die on the cross for nothing.... If not, why we bother working to help others? 

I can't bear the alternative. I tried denying God and religion in anger on the face of 250,000 death on one Boxing Day. But years later I realised that turning away from God only made my life empty and meaningless. 

As expressed so beautifully in Mary Doria Russel's The Sparrow, "I'd rather think that God does not exist, because the alternative is too painful. I love God too much to hold Him responsible for all these deaths and atrocities. Yet if He is God and He is Almighty, why did He not stop this tragedy? Why did He let so many innocents die?"

I thought I came to accept the non-existence of any answer and take the alternative route of believing that in every disaster we found one or two human kindness that reflect the Father's Love.

But today, I really would love to hear God's answer to a question asked by a young rape survivor (and many other victims of poverty, injustice, exploitation and oppression): what's the point? 

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Be adventurous

I have been thinking... As a child and teenager I tried everything: from ballet to karate, from basket ball to mountaineering. Someone labelled me back then: "you're a quitter! You can't finish what you started!" I was sad because the person who labelled me was an important person. I thought I was disappointing him all my life. 

I remember carrying too many things in my hand and they all fell. My parents told me off for biting more than I could chew. 

But today I realised how rich I am because of all the things I have tried and the many stuff I had tried to carry. By failing to carry everything, I learned my limit. Because I tried everything, my CV is colourful, and I am proud of all my successes and failures. I am proud that I chose my own way and never let anyone dictate me. 

When I begged for help and was left to struggle on my own, I thought my world came to an end. But today I'm glad that I did things my way. The tears of being abandoned has become my strength. 

My advice to the next generation is to follow your heart. There's nothing wrong in changing careers or trying many different hobbies. Be responsible, but don't forget to be adventurous. Just like the meme here: better an ooops than a what if... 

Monday, December 26, 2016

Merry Christmas!

It's been a very busy December, but I'm so happy to share these with the best son in the world Jack Bara and my lovely husband Andy. On Christmas Eve Andy came to midnight mass with me. 

Exchanging presents was made extra special by Jack's very lovely handmade Xmas card. I love our meaningful and useful presents to each other (see the photos, I got important books and chocolate Bailey's!). 

Then Andy and I went to Cornerstone Day Centre for a quick Christmas greetings. 

Saying Merry Christmas to the homeless and the volunteers, abd sharing hugs with people who have nowhere else to go is very meaningful. We felt so warm watching the happiness in the face of a young man who got a simple present of a singing biscuit tin. We chat with a young Polish man who wanted to open a streetfood soup cart (and he's been working 12hrs a day to save up for his dream!). The best part is that he's going to do a 'soup-portive' programme where people can buy soup for the next homeless person who pass. Aaaww...

After Cornerstone, it's time for our own Christmas lunch. Operation Christmas Lunch began! (See our timetable?) 

Then of course we had to watch the Queen's speech, which I think is really inspiring! The Queen talked about of "small acts of goodness" and "ordinary people doing extraordinary things".

Our Christmas lunch is delicious and filling. We thanked each other for cooking, for washing up, and for being together this Christmas. It was a short and hectic day as I had to rush to work in the evening, but it was Christmas, the day of the mother and child, and the step father who took his painful role with love and patience. It's also the birthday of The First Revolutionary who taught us to love the poor and the marginalised. Today was our family's best day of 2016! 

Merry Christmas... ❤🎄❤

Monday, November 28, 2016

Facing Racism as It is

A client at work said twice that I am Indian. I told her I am not. She said again that I have an Indian accent and that she cannot 'connect' with people with accents like me. I told her that her remark is racist and that it is offensive.

I told her that people in other countries might also have difficulties understanding her, especially when she could not be bothered to learn any other language.

I 'have an accent' because I have travelled around the world and managed to learn a number of different languages. But fyi, there are over 6 billions people in the world and there are over 6 billion accents. Of course an ignorant little piece of sh*t like this person don't have the brain to comprehend this. (This client refuses to talk to male, changed a worker because "she's too old", and say that all services she use are "useless" and "sh*t") 

If someone being racist, tell them that they are. This is the only way we can stop this bigotry. We are all part of one human race. 

Stop racism!

This is my son, me and my husbandWe are part of one human race!

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Cornerstone Big Sleep Out - raising money for winter homeless shelter

Last night #CSBigsleepout was successful. About 130 people slept outside St Christopher's Church, 

By 2am, we had some frost on our sleeping bag but we survived. Thanks God we can go to a warm home after! 

Over 100 people in Manchester have to sleep in the same frosty and wet sleeping bag on the street for nights after nights after nights. As Bishop John Arnold of Salford and Manchester Diocese said, "This is injustice in our society that we have to fight!" This is why we need to help them with winter shelters.

Please continue to donate to Cornerstone Big Sleep Out